I am still alive, you guys. I feel like I need to post something about my well-being even if I know that I am actually updating my only reader, no one.
Anyway, I owe you guys blog entries for two trips and I ask for your forgiveness for the delay.
M and I went to Hong Kong last August, and I did a solo trip a couple of weeks back. I have tons of photos to watermark and resize so I ask for your understanding, reader who probably does not exist.
I will first be posting an HK haul first to keep the ball rolling. Hold on.
I tried to stay away from social media during my solo trip and it blew my mind what a four-day time out did to my soul. I feel like I’m a totally different person with a different perspective about my relationship with other people. Maybe it was the offline vacation, or the book I read during that time, or the people I met. Maybe it was the beauty of the place which made me realize that sulking over something as trivial as a non-relationship relationship is not worth it. Planet earth is too beautiful to waste a time being petty while you’re on it.
I took the plane with a heavy heart and went home feeling… calm. I don’t know what’s going on. I suddenly do not care about him anymore. I know I’ve said that countless of times – that I don’t care about him only to find myself checking his SM pages a gazillon of times each day. It was fcking toxic, tbh.
But now I feel… meh. I haven’t checked his SM pages since my vacation and I was ok with that.
Likewise, I feel like I dont have to share every minute detail of my life with everyone on my SM pages. Of course I still would because I am foremost a writer and that’s what I do.
But I finally realize that I don’t owe anyone anything. If someone wants to know what’s going on in my life, they’d ask. That’s the bare minimum. People who actually love me will even ask me out on a coffee or dinner and they’re doing exactly just that, actually. I owe THEM my stories, not the hundreds of my FB friends.
I should go on a solo vacation more. Or disconnect myself more from social media more. It was super nice.